My pain will never be fathomed

A Poem

By Sinenhlanhla MlilowokuNqoba MaPhezabantu

It only takes a second or a few
Then I am tempted to smoke
I feel the urge to intoxicate myself to oblivion
Father is callous and insensitive
Mother is submissive and revering
I am tempted but
The antidepressants and izizwe
Are the two nuisances
That repel me from cloud nine
Pain begets pain
I am psychologically strained
I am bitter, I am triggered
My figure is a stature of prominence
Though less can be said
About what lies inside it
Spectators see a Hollywood chick flick
But the residents
Are struggling to swallow the pill of the ill
My pain will never be fathomed